So I started Adipex on Friday. It has taken some adjustment.

Friday: Woo! I was crazy! So much energy throughout the day. And I didn’t think about eating all day. I usually eat lunch at 11:30, and I looked up at 1:00 and realized I hadn’t eaten. We went to Relay for Life and I realized I should probably eat, so I had a banana. I was up until 3am and never got hungry. Walked 8 miles and had energy to walk more, but I also had a huge blister on each heel. I was happy that I slept very well that night.

Saturday: Day 2. I didn’t want to eat. At all. I just felt full. I had to force myself to eat half of a bowl of oatmeal. I ate half of a tuna salad sandwich for lunch and had to force myself to eat the rest. I had one piece of pizza for dinner. Calorie-wise, I really needed to eat a second piece of pizza, but I just couldn’t make myself do it. I napped throughout the day and still slept well overnight. So that was nice.

Sunday: Day 3. Felt MUCH more even. Got up at 7:30 feeling well-rested. Dry mouth seems to be less severe. Still not getting hungry, but I was able to eat without feeling disgusted. I decided at each meal how much I needed to eat to meet my calorie needs. And I didn’t think twice about it. Dinner, for example. Margherita pizza and salad.

Before the food even came, I knew I was going to have one piece of pizza and as much salad as I wanted. And that’s exactly what I did. I finished this salad when I was about half done with the pizza. So I had a second serving of salad about the same size and finished the pizza. I was done way before Nathan and Kent. There was a lot of pizza left. I didn’t want a second piece. And I was shocked by that. I usually have 3 pieces and about twice as much salad.

Verdict on Adipex so far? It has taken some adjustment. And I know I’m still getting adjusted. First 2 days, I didn’t even feel like me. Today I feel much more even and I feel like it has just turned off my emotions in my food choices. I haven’t thought about eating outside of meal times. I actually haven’t thought of eating at all. It’s good I have Nathan around to initiate meals because I’m not feeling any hunger.

Typically, this past weekend would have been very difficult for me. The food at Relay for Life? Sausages and peppers. Snow cones. Cotton candy. Brownies. Cookies. Pop. All of the things that are usually my downfall. The entire time there? I ate a banana and drank about four bottles of water. We spent the rest of the weekend at Mom’s and Nate’s Mom’s. Where there is candy in bowls and chips in the kitchen and good cooks all around. And I had no trouble staying on course.

For the first time ever, I’m able to see food as fuel and making the best decision based on long-term goals instead of short-term goals. I’m making an eating plan before I even fill my plate. The emotions around food are gone. I don’t know what to think about it. But I’m hoping that by the time I’m off the medication, these thoughts and behaviors will be a strong habit. I realize I need to get my calorie intake back up, and I have been eating more each day. I know this medication is not forever, but I also know that I needed something to help me leave 219.

And it’s been really hard to stay off the scale!