hiding somewhere in the night
I’ve been distracted today.
Thanks a lot, Mary.
I kid, kinda.
This morning, I was just browsing through my reader when I came across this post. With a scale giveaway. Not a food scale. But the scale that I have sworn off until November 3rd.
And I’ve thought about the scale all day.
I wonder how much I’ve lost? I wonder what kind of progress I’ve made? What’s a realistic goal to be at by Christmas?
Questions, questions, questions.
So I come home and tell Nathan I’ve been thinking about the scale. And he gets it out of hiding. And I weigh. And I get really discouraged.
Okay, so this was a stupid decision for many reasons.
1) Hello! Krissie you just ate dinner. DINNER. On top of breakfast and lunch. Previous weigh-ins have been first thing in the morning. Not after 3 meals. Geesh!
2) What are we measuring success by anyway? The stupid, fickle scale or things you can measure LIKE CUTTING 4 (FOUR!) MINUTES OFF YOUR 5K TIME? Huh?
3) How are you pants fitting? Looser? Yeah? I thought so.
So, as much as I want to weigh in the morning, I’m not going to do it. The scale will be hidden again. Until my birthday. And I’ll keep on keeping on. With my eyes on the prize. And I’ve found several prizes, but I’m not ready to commit to them yet. So I’m still mulling over it.
And my workout tonight? Craptastic. I’m blaming it on the scale. And the rain bothers my left knee. (Yes, I’m going to be 90 on my next birthday, thank you.) I did 20 on the arc trainer and 20 hard minutes on the bike, so I guess that’s nothing to sneeze at.
Yup. Keeping on keeping on. I’m unpaused. I am still running.
(And I do want to win that scale. You know, for after my birthday. Because I’m self-destructive like that. Don’t let that sway your decision to not give it to me if I win, Mary…seriously.)
I know that its so hard to stay away from the scale sometimes but I definitely agree that you should measure success with other things like lowering your PR for your 5K time. Thats an accomplishment to be proud of!!
Oops, sorry!!
Sometimes the best thing to do is just say fuck the scale. Or at least byebye until the birthday. :) Seriously you are doing a FANTASTIC job. Letting one factor outweigh all the other signs of success you have seen is ridiculous. Keep on doing what you are doing! You are doing a great job!
Hehe, if you win (pray to the random integer gods, please) then I will totally give it to you. ;)
If you ever find the recipe how not to be influences by that bloody scale, please let me know! (: I hate that I can be sometimes so stupid that I let ruin my day by some machine. But cheer up, you’re doing great!
i may have to do some music shopping tomorrow! i also got a nike+ today and new running shoes. can’t wait. are you using any of the the coaching programs? from the nike+ site?