Remember those days when we were kids? When we were excited about birthdays?
Tomorrow is mine. My mood today is horrible. I’m assuming the two are somehow related. I can’t promise that, but I’m assuming.
At dinner tonight, we were talking about me and birthdays. And how much I’ve changed since my last birthday. And the birthday before that. How much younger I am (physically, not chronologically) than I have been on my last few birthdays.
But my head isn’t in that place.
I KNOW I should be THANKFUL. I know I should appreciate how far I’ve come, my motivation, my resolve, my results. My focus that during my rotten mood, the farthest off track I got was 1/4 cup of granola and 1/4 cup of Fage (I measured). And I am very thankful and very proud. Most of the time.
But today I’m stuck on my lack of stuff. My wedding rings were put up months ago, and now my temporary wedding band is almost ready to be retired as well. The pajamas I’ve gotten attached to for the last 5 years are ridiculously huge. My work clothes? No longer fit. I am going to have to either buy new clothes or get them altered. My first round of new clothes are too big. It’s time to start over again.
And we’re not in the financial situation for a new wardrobe. I don’t want to go to consignment shops. I want new clothes. Mine.
I want, I want, I want.
Really? I’m complaining about losing weight? What?
I know, I know. The solution would be easy! Stop exercising. Eat, eat, eat.
No thank you.
So I’m going to watch Big Bang Theory and then I’ll go to bed. Wake up and be 32. Enjoy my day off. Be floored at the results I’ll see on the scale as the embargo ends. Have Starbucks in bed, go for a run. Hang out with my honey. Split a birthday dessert at dinner.
Just hang around. Tomorrow will be better.
I promise.
Happy birthday!
I completely understand where you are at. After losing 56 pounds and having my second round of new clothes start to get too big on me, I actually decided that I just needed to maintain for a little while. I have been maintaining for almost a month and I am doing a great job at it. As of this morning, I am a half pound above my lowest which is awesome! I feel really good about maintaining and I now know that when I am ready to stop losing weight that I can maintain no problem. Somehow, that has brought me a lot of peace. I am actually ready to get back on the weight loss bandwagon very soon. This “maintenance break” was exactly what I needed. I hope you are able to find exactly what you need.
Well I de-lurked to congratulate you on your awesome run last week so I’ll come out to wish you a Happy Birthday as well! Enjoy your day, what you have planned sounds wonderful!
Happy birthday!!
I hope you have a wonderful day with no blues.
Happy birthday!!! I’m glad you got your blues out yesterday so today you can just ENJOY celebrating you.
happy birthday Krissie! glad you are emerging from the blues – so much to celebrate! have a wonderful birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Hope you’re having a fantastic day.
Happy birthday blues Kris ;-)
You will snap out of it and all will be kick ass. You rock everything.
I LOVE BIG BANG THEORY!!! Sooo funny!!
Happy Birthday! You are entitled to feel the blues if you wish too. Here’s hoping tomorrow is better and brighter!
Happy birthday!!!! You are SUCH AN INSPIRATION!!! Keep it up Krissy!!!!!! You’re doing awesome and it’s great to have someone to look up to on this journey— thanks for being that person for me!