Yeah. So I’ve not been honest with myself the last few days. How?
I haven’t been feeling great. Tummy hasn’t been happy. I assumed that my eating was not on plan because I wasn’t feeling well. In reality? It was probably more the other way around – my tummy wasn’t happy because of what I was eating. All the sugar. Pizza for lunch yesterday. Nothing that resembled a veggie. Nothing like I had been eating for a while. No wonder my digestive system has been rebelling. It doesn’t like me! And I’m not being very nice. I’m glad I realized this before I went for more than 2 days of “off” eating.
I was feeling munchy today. I went into the gift shop and bought 3 mini Reese cups. Why? They were just little chocolates. If they’re just little and I don’t take a picture of them, they wouldn’t count. I liked this logic so much that I went and bought 3 more. I might as well have eaten 2 full-sized Reese cups. I’d never do that! But, in my mind, it all made some warped sense at the time.
I was really wanting to eat when I got home. Nathan gets out the chips and guacamole. It was gonna take 15 minutes for the pasta to cook for dinner. I convinced myself that I couldn’t wait that long. So I ate chips. My justification? I was just eating chips, not the guacamole. (And then I had a handful of granola. And several bites of leftover pasta. And extra cheese. No real justification for that.) But really? Two lies in one! I was completely able to wait AND the reason I didn’t eat the guacamole was a little brown for my liking.
Once I take a step back, it’s shocking how quickly I can mislead myself – how easily I can fall right back into old patterns. I’ve been reminded how important my plans and routines are.
And I’m stopping the lies right here. I ate 1/2 of my dinner because I was full. And as soon as dinner settles, I’m off for a run. Then I’ll plan out tomorrow’s eating so I’ll know.
So when did you lie to yourself today? What did you justify? Does your perspective change when you back away and really think about it?
ahhhh…confession time yesterday I ate some gingersnaps, chips and Skittles. Did they taste good, not really. Did I feel good after, not really. Did I need them, no. Was I hungry, no. Back on track today though lacing my shoes up for a 6km run!
I keep telling myself that just because it’s a little bit busy in the gym, it’s ok to cut the weight training out of my workout because the area I like to do that portion in is always jammed up. I’m short changing myself just to avoid stress, but the workout itself is a stress reliever.
I end up kicking myself on my walk home when I REALLY think about it.
ugh, I totally lied to my self this morning! I justified not getting up for a walk, with I have to work until 10pm tonight. Kicking myself now!
Yesterday I told myself that since I hadn’t eaten much during the day, I could have about 4 big handfuls of Wheat Thins without feeling guilty because they were “Reduced Fat.” I didn’t eat them mindfully and ended up feeling crappy and sleepy. Back on track today, though.
Love the honesty, from you and all the commenters!
It’s amazing the mind tricks we play on ourselves, isn’t it? Especially when we feel like we *know* them all! Yesterday I had a particularly rough day and no sleep the night before. I used that to justify a bowl of cereal (or two) before bed. Gah! I thought I was getting past that mindless eating crud. Today is new and fresh, right? Love that.
I’ve been having the same trouble ever since the holidays. My stomach feels funny so I’d better eat something. But maybe it feels funny because I keep eating the wrong stuff. And I ate a whole bunch of crackers yesterday but they’re OK because they’re whole grain and full of fiber. I stopped writing down what I was eating, but I think I’d better start doing it again so I can’t lie to myself about how much I’m eating. I haven’t gained weight but I’ve stopped losing.