hope for me yet

krissie — Fri, 02 Mar 2007 00:47:00 +0000

I am pretty impressed with my resolve to not pick on my body, and really impressed that I have generalized it to my spirit as well. I just finished yesterday’s run. Just now. I just didn’t feel like it yesterday. I was excited to run outside, but it was windy and colder than predicted, so we went out to eat and I just laid on the couch and watched 2 hours of America’s Next Top Model. This is one of the times where before I would have quit and not ran again. I tend to have such extreme thinking, like if I didn’t follow the running program to the letter, I wouldn’t follow it at all. But I just ran today instead. Not a thought of quitting. Maybe that’s because I’ve spent a fortune in running shoes and Nate would kill me if I quit. But whatever it is, it’s working!

I won a spelling bee at work today. No big deal…my competition misspelled “genius.”

The sermon I listened to yesterday talked about how we sing in order to be able to express our love to God in a way that speaking words can’t do. That left me thinking about the songs I connect so much with my experience, My Savior’s Love (“Let’s sing #85 Papaw!”), In Christ Alone (preferably from Newsboy’s Adoration cd), and so on. Today, in my car, I found a similar vibe from a song written as just a love song, that I have so often attached to Nathan. But today, I realized how much it speaks of God’s love too.

If you could love someone like me, there’s no end to the possibilities. Hopes and dreams push away the pain and regret. And loving you just lets me know there might be hope for me yet. (~Marc Broussard, Hope for me Yet)

In the times I wonder my worth, God knows. And who am I to question what God knows?

It’s time for Wheat Chex, a shower, the Office, and a Grey’s Anatomy repeat. And Nate home from class! And hopefully my crocs will get here soon…I know you’re on the FedEx truck! Great night for me!

Macaroni and Tomatoes

krissie — Tue, 27 Feb 2007 18:29:00 +0000

Lunch today is a flashback to a favorite childhood meal…elbow mac and canned tomatoes. Life doesn’t get much better.

So I did W1D3 (week 1 day 3) of my running program last night. It was hard going back to the treadmill after Friday’s outdoor run. Wednesday is looking promising for outdoor running weather, so I’m excited. I think it’s interesting that outdoor running is definitely harder (due to the one course we have in town) and I look forward to it most.

I had a full-blown epiphany yesterday. I listened to a sermon over the last month or so that had a message that didn’t sink in until yesterday, in the car, out of the blue. Somehow I understand now that God loves who I am today. So often, my feelings about myself are about who I will be in the future. I see that I tend to generalize that attitude to my perception of how others feel about me. And my mental shift of appreciating who I am has caused me to see that God cares for me as the person I am today. And that love also comes from my husband, my family, my friends. They love the me of today, not the projected somewhere-in-the-future me that I love. I don’t know if that makes any sense, but it hit me like a ton of bricks. And knowing that others appreciate and value the me of today will help me do the same.

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hope for me yet

Macaroni and Tomatoes